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so long, & good night... [08 Aug 2004|03:45pm] ok guys. Im moving. (not to a different country.) used_furniture. add me, for serious. i added all of you already. so...</span> </a> well, i had a great time tonight..

AND I CANT MAKE IT ON MY OWN [06 Aug 2004|09:56pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | hawthorne heights ] because my heart is in ohio. so cut my wrists and black my eyes. so i cant fall asleep tonight. yea, hawthorne heights owns your family business. went to warped. i was 5 hours late after a worthless horrible day of camp, i got there and chelsea and hamso and manda were already jammed out. well i only saw nofx, coheed and cambria, new found flory, yellowcard, and some of taking back sunday. so that was eh. the girls got to meet bowling for soup and became friends with them! they also befriended someone from this other band which they got 3 cd's from. yea. as for the moshpit...MONICA/NIKKI/JACKIE: be afraid. we werent really in it, but in the beginning of coheed and cambria we were standing in what we thought was A SAFE, HEARTY ENVIRONMENT. then all of a sudden sami gets a bad feeling and THERE ARE HUMAN BODIES FLYING AT US. i was laughing really hard then all of a sudden i was on the ground with a man on top of me, and my eye wouldnt open, and chelsea was yelling at this guy cause he wouldnt get off of me. i was still laughing. then someone got beer in my hair. then i got mad. However i did not have one drink or do anything out of the ordinary (besides singing along to yellowcard. but at least i admit it.) oh and this old guy comes over to me and goes, "how you doin sweetie?" and i was like "Im fine. Would you like to suck my penis?" he was startled. now we're back at samis place. AMANDA DOESNT WANT TO WATCH A HORROR MOVIE AND THAT IS HORRORFYING. <3 10 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

[06 Aug 2004|05:02pm] [ mood | rejected ] [ music | mcr ] kitchen. boys. make. graves. 4 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

should i trust my printers ink to express the things i think? [05 Aug 2004|07:35pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | hellogoodbye-dear jamie, sincerely me ] Today i had my heart blown to pieces. 4 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

7th grade with a bank account [04 Aug 2004|11:38pm] [ mood | thirsty! ] [ music | nekromantix ] rafting was superdoooperdiscowow! we got there and rafted for 6 years, then i jumped into the delaware river and pulled the boat for another 4 years, then we made it to the hot dog man. then we reached our final destination and died a little. then i got home and ate a lot of wendys and then went to my room and slept and now im here. picking the dead skin off my toes. what am i seriously the only one who does that? 1 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

like a breastless carwash [03 Aug 2004|06:37pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | not a good look II ] well i had something i was going to write about but it completely slipped my mind. just like...slip...gone... anyway. exciting news ...KITCHBOY1 ASKED FOR MY NAME! and then 2 hours later i asked for his. even though i already knew cause ive been stalking him for quite the long time. whatevs guys whatevs. tomorrows rafting. if you rearranging the letters its "farting". mnhahahaha. my cough has died down a lot a lot and when i cough it makes this weird noise, its like... enh enhh EEENNGGYRGHHHHRT anyway. im gonna go. <3456789 3 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

and your eyes say the jokes on me [02 Aug 2004|06:08pm] [ mood | full ] [ music | saints and sailors ] ill admit last night i went a little psycho. but everythings fine now. unless im just unhealthily (sthat a word?) numb to everything. but whatever. today was ok...HAD ANOTHER CONVERSATION WITH KITCHBOY1! scorezszsz. then his friends started singing "can you feel the love tonight" and i was about to do my impression of an untamed monkey, but i held back. (hahaa remember when i was doing my blind ferret in front of sampson?) oh man. anyway...im really in love with all my kids. (not as in the children that i produced. no i dont have any of those yet.) i mean in my bunk. theyre all really sweet and today one girl told me i was her favorite counselor. IT BROUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES. yea...wedenesdays the rafting trip. rafting SUCKS unless your fucking the free world (4b what. 4b what.) k'imdone. 9 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

its like a bad movie. [01 Aug 2004|09:48pm] [ mood | disgusted ] im shaking and i feel like i'm about to throw up. please please please this cannot be happening. PLEASE. DyEitCoKe49: aww DyEitCoKe49: boo talibear10: what? DyEitCoKe49: im happy all the aleph girls love me a lot, and want me around :-D talibear10: ? talibear10: i didn't make the party. don't blame me, you know i want you around. DyEitCoKe49: thats not the point. just you guys dispised me this summer. DyEitCoKe49: and everyone told me, too talibear10: when did i EVER say i despised you? DyEitCoKe49: you know how many people told me?? talibear10: i know other people maybe disliked you (never despised you) but i never did, so don't point fingers at me. DyEitCoKe49: well who disliked me talibear10: idk, i heard stories that i don't want to repeat out of common courtesy. DyEitCoKe49: no talia please talibear10: who told you they disliked you? DyEitCoKe49: i wont get mad at anyone talibear10: claire, it really isn't important who, what, when, where, and why DyEitCoKe49: i heard shoshannah, jillian, jackie b, you, DyEitCoKe49: no seriously i know its not important but i have a right to know DyEitCoKe49: i dont need to go around being friends with people if theyre just pretending to be mine DyEitCoKe49: so please, its common courtesy, to tell me talibear10: and i have a right to not tell you because my friends asked me not to. talibear10: and they aren't pretending claire, some people who didn't like you this summer didn't hang out with you. it's simple. so obviously the people who did like you. DyEitCoKe49: ariel shorr talibear10: and i only disliked you a little bit after you hooked-up with Dan, but that was only jealousy DyEitCoKe49: uch DyEitCoKe49: i told you i regret it DyEitCoKe49: ariel shorr and who else? talibear10: i know. idc anymore claire, seriously. talibear10: sarena DyEitCoKe49: is that it DyEitCoKe49: can you please tell me what they said DyEitCoKe49: i will never pin this on you i swear talibear10: here, to make things easier for you....basically most of the people who were at tali grossmans "bash" for sarena before DyEitCoKe49: was it shoshannah too? talibear10: and like, berger. talibear10: yeah DyEitCoKe49: please tell me what shoshannah and berger said talibear10: shoshannah the most though. sorry. DyEitCoKe49: i really need to know this talibear10: under one condition. DyEitCoKe49: ? talibear10: do not mention my name if you ever bring this up to either of the, talibear10: them* DyEitCoKe49: i swear on my life i wont talibear10: ok talibear10: shoshannah said she hates you (yes, i know that's harsh) because she said you've morphed into this really superficial person who can tell other people what to do when you aren't comfortable with yourself. and she thinks that your only true friend in bet is Jackie Ulman because she's the only one who's never actually betrayed anyone. DyEitCoKe49: WHAT? DyEitCoKe49: and im sure everyone nodded and agreed talibear10: dont argue with me. it wasn't my opinion. DyEitCoKe49: and what did berger say talibear10: berger just said you fish for compliments and you're exactly like all the other bet girls. talibear10: idk, there was like this really big unknown rivalry between bet and aleph this year. and aleph knew all about it but bet was sort of clueless. DyEitCoKe49: i REALLY wish you would understand something talia talibear10: mainly for the boys, like alot of them said how they liked hanging out with the aleph girls and being around us because we're more genuine or something and it was a good change. idk what they mean by genuine but whatever. talibear10: what? talibear10: i have NOTHING to do with what berger or shoshannah said, so please don't yell at me for not badmouthing YOU at all when i listened to berger and shoshannah preach to me this summer. DyEitCoKe49: that bet was NOT "sort of clueless" DyEitCoKe49: we knew you guys hated us talibear10: and obviously i have nothing against any of the girls in bet because im friends with most of you DyEitCoKe49: DOES THAT STOP ANYONE ELSE??? talibear10: maybe less than last year but still friends none the less DyEitCoKe49: SHOSHANNAH HATED ME AND PRETENDED TO BE MY BEST FRIENDS talibear10: no. but why does everyone else matter if they aren't true DyEitCoKe49: because they were pretending talibear10: she never pretended claire, she ignored you this summer for a reason. DyEitCoKe49: so i thought they were DyEitCoKe49: no she didnt talibear10: yes she did. DyEitCoKe49: no, she didnt. talibear10: trust me, i lived with her for three and a half months. she avoided you alot claire. she told me about it alot. talibear10: and now im screwing myself over because shoshannahs one of my best friends and i don't want to jeapordize my friendship with her over something she said that has to do with you and not me, so if we're going to talk about ALEPH VS. BET super battle knockdown then let's do it generally instead of dilluting it down to just berger and shoshannah battle. talibear10: ok? DyEitCoKe49: bet girls werent clueless DyEitCoKe49: we didnt want to start something talibear10: well, the bet girls (and im not including you in with them because i personally think you're alot better than some of them) already started things without picking a fight because of what alot of the guys told alot of the g-8 girls about some of you. DyEitCoKe49: you know what DyEitCoKe49: it is fucking impossible for friends to be separated without huge battles going on DyEitCoKe49: because everyone is far too immature to not badmouth DyEitCoKe49: even lets say, some people WHO HAVE BEEN FRIENDS FOR MORE THAN 5 YEARS DyEitCoKe49: and you aleph girls...... DyEitCoKe49: my god DyEitCoKe49: "genuine"??????? DyEitCoKe49: SINCE WHEN IS GENUINE TALKING ABOUT EVERYONE BEHIND THEIR BACKS talibear10: and it was more of a jealousy factor because the aleph guys would badmouth you guys like crazy and then when you came to aleph or we came to bet they would ONLY hang out with you often. except berger sort of, so, idk, that was another main reason for alot of the girls to dislike some of you. out of mere jealousy because all of you are like super model gorgeous. DyEitCoKe49: PRETENDING TO BE FRIENDS WITH US talibear10: claire. stop with the caps, you're making me nervous. DyEitCoKe49: are you kidding? talibear10: you see, i know this was a mistake because now you're going to point fingers at me when i sware on my life and soul that i did not badmouth you ONCE this summer, ever ever ever. DyEitCoKe49: but im sure you nodded along DyEitCoKe49: and didnt stand up for me talibear10: claire, im not your mother, i'm your friend. i'm not going to stand up for you when you are highly capable of doing that yourself. and to make false accusations about what i did or did not do is just stupid on your behalf. because for your information, i didn't knod. i might have internally agreed with SOME, not all, but some of the things other people said but either way i was being trustful to you and not saying anything to dig you deeper into a hole. DyEitCoKe49: yea talia hw was i supposed to stand up for myself when they said it behind my back DyEitCoKe49: you have no idea how hurt i am right now talibear10: because that would just ruin our friendship which had been currently going down a drain because of some stupid guy we let get into the way. DyEitCoKe49: i need you to tell me what ben, adam, and everyone said talibear10: claire, you knew what they were saying. i know you knew what they were saying and i wasn't about to go and fuck up my friendship with my aleph friends just to get you out of your own problem that you created. you created your own identity, not me, or jackie, or monica or shoshannah or anyone else. talibear10: adam is your best friend. you're stupid to think he ever badmouthed you since you're the only one he's actually nice to. DyEitCoKe49: I DID NOT CREATE THAT FUCKING IDENTITY talibear10: ben i didn't talk to about bet girls simply because i knew he wasn't badmouthing you guys. DyEitCoKe49: DONT EVER TELL ME THAT DyEitCoKe49: how can they fucking say that DyEitCoKe49: when they dont know me talibear10: well, then they created it for you and you have to tell them off, not me. talibear10: i wasn't the one being talked about in aleph, i don't even want to know what bet girls said but i wasn't the one being accused of anything false like you were being accused of therefor i didn't have to say anything. DyEitCoKe49: actually DyEitCoKe49: im just telling you DyEitCoKe49: whats on my mind DyEitCoKe49: and actually talibear10: and yes, it was a mistake for me not to defend you. i admitt that, but don't yell at me for what OTHER people are saying. DyEitCoKe49: bet girls didnt say anything about the aleph girls talibear10: that's actually some sort of relief because everyone always thought you guys were talking about us constantly. talibear10: because like emily levy kept calling us all prude idiots talibear10: but you know im not friendly with her and i'd rather believe first hand information from someone that i trusted. Bet was not clueless. we knew they hates us. we did not hate them back. maybe we are mature enough to realize that just because we are on seperate sides of camp is not an excuse to speak badly about eachother. i thought that shit was sprout news. but apparently people are immature enough that they know how to take it with them. this absolutely sucks. not only was shoshannah my best friend for what...3 years? but also she PRETENDED to like me this summer. and i had no idea. but thats not what got to me the most out of this wole fucked up thing...its that...sam doesnt think im my own person. shoshannah doesnt realize im my own human being. (i know it sounds corny) and i have to admit, for a few years, i too thought the whole "arlen, monica, jackie, corrine, jessica, cassie" group of friends werent their own person that they all followed eachother around but then i got to know them and they are the most amazing girls on this universe. and i am definitely happy to say theyre my best friends. and now im beginning to see that this has made me happy im not "hating" on the outside. im happy im not ignorant and not taking time to know these AMAZING INDIVIDUALS and maybe im not meant to be friends with these girls if their so closedminded. and i feel like i am in first grade. and i kind of feel better, but terrible at the same time, and man i really want some fudge.. 18 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

[31 Jul 2004|03:56pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | the hives ] well gee guys thanks a lot for telling me about the young judea community. ( oh snaps ) 3 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

weesa goin to guitarrrr schoo' [30 Jul 2004|08:48pm] [ mood | achy ] [ music | deathcab for cutie-fake frowns ] well. i kind of feel like posting pictures. theyre not all "hotandfresh" so yea.   ( his knees were so hairy she thought they were his children ) 5 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

baby baby baby baby baby!!! [29 Jul 2004|08:54pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | OTOWN- love should be a crime ] YEAH THATS RIGHT! O-town is for lovers. they just want to love you... i talked to ian today. for like 4 minutes. but it made me realllly happy, i dont know why. well he was in the JCC that we stayed at when we were there and i dunno he was like...im at the jcc you guys stayed at! im getting kicked out though. i dont know why but it made me so happy. and im annoying myself. so im gonna "roll." though i dont know why anyone would actually ROLL unless theyre ginormously fat and cant move. still annoying myself. goodbye. 11 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

pull the trigger and the nightmare stops !!! [28 Jul 2004|07:28pm] [ mood | ITCHY ] [ music | co&ca ] if i knew how to use my digital camera, id draw on all of my misquito bites and sexify them all. theyd be scene bites. im taping toilet paper to my shoe sometime. yea yea yea. JESUSSSSSS IM SO ITCHY. camp is fun, besides the fact that i seem to have fallen madly in love with each and every boy at that place. im not even kidding. lets make a list: 1. kitchen boy #1 (possible names; Evan, stuey) (actually i just came up with stuey. nevermind.) 2. Kitchboy#2 3. short hot boy 4. taller than short hot boy 5. counselor with cool hair 6. curly karl 7. curly karls friend tyler and more that i cant say. im s0o0sksos0s b0y crazzzzzzzE hyhaahahhehaa! 3 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

[28 Jul 2004|12:02am] oh yea and i saw a cinderella story tonight. WHAT A DISGUSTINGLY HORRIFIC MOVIE. i wanted to gouge my eyeballs out...and worst of all my mom didnt understand the jokes i was making. I HAVE NO FRIENDS. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx 1 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

we are salt, you are the wound [27 Jul 2004|11:56pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | fob ] ATTN BEAUTIFUL KITCHEN BOYS AT JCC: I AM HERE TO HAVE HOT BUTTERY SEX IN THE SPORTS SHACK. SO. ONE AT A TIME, BOYS. THANK YOU. THAT IS ALL. so my dad thinks i have walking pnemonia..spelled correctly...but i refuse to believe. got new shoes tonight YEYWYEYEYEYEYAY. theyre hot. <Q%$#$#$three well, i had a great time tonight..

i will dance to please the puppiteer [26 Jul 2004|10:51pm] [ mood | drained ] so my birthday weekend was tripplexgroovey. read jakes lj im too tired to talk about it. but yea. it was awes. so awes i would clone it. OH THATS A GOOD ONE...SPREAD IT... righto. im off. <#3 1 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

kiss me im straight edge [23 Jul 2004|11:34pm] i still feel like crap. i still look like turd. im still not sleeping. im still confused. i still hate berliner. my grandpas still dying. sundays still my birthday. and writing down my feelings doesnt make me feel liberated at all. (im not guilttripping or looking for pity i just need to get that out) 3 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

[23 Jul 2004|05:36pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | no. ] EVERYTHING SUCKS. EVERYTHING. 5 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

that rusting ablene guitar is sparkling in the corner [22 Jul 2004|09:29pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | breaking benjamin-so cold ] well is it right (in value or in conduct, professor?) that i am alledged to admire the lack of depth in our late night conversations? No, but it is also not appreciated that you are still a flimsy reminder stuck on my refridgerator door. No one will understand what I am talking about. thatll do, pig. 2 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

can i swallow this bottle away SO THIS BRAIN IN MY HEAD CAN FORGET YOUR FACE. [21 Jul 2004|09:07pm] [ mood | unhappy. ] [ music | yellowcard-firewater ] well. this is one of the first bad days ive had in a while. not that my life is perfect. just i dont usually come home feeling like this. i dont know maybe im over-tired from the trip. THE TRIP! so yesterday i got up, showered, went to camp. twas alright. then after camp we loaded the buses and i got my seat that id been dreaming about all day (dreamy sigh). then we got to this annoying kosher pizza place with REALLY classy bathrooms. ha. Oh yea me and sami called Ian on the bus...i made her ask for him cause im a vagina. and it was my first time talking to him on the phone so i felt manly and annoying. Yea so then we got to the JCC in baltimore (theres is so much nicer than ours) and hung out and watched the best of adam sandler on saturday night live. chelsea didnt think it was funny. but me and sami were laughing our balls off. right so we made friends with these guys dave and ian. (yes, ian.) and there are these other kids who are cool, but really hate me for some reason. right then the next day they woke us up at 6:30 FOR NO GOOD REASON AT ALL. and i was miffed. absoulutely miffed. yea so we got to the inner harbor and ate and shopped kind of...then we ran into ramah even though we knew they were coming cause i talked to Lindsay. so that was good i got to see her. but what was bad was Berliner was there, and assholish as ever. god he was such a dick. and completely immature if i may add. not that im not; just that when people break up, (six months later) theyre supposed to be friends right? or at least TRY. he said it was "weird" and "awkward" being around me. does he think i still like him? cause that would SUCK MY ASS. or maybe it was "weird" and "akward" cause i dont live up to his COMPLETELY AWESOME camp friends expectations...i HATE them. they are a cult, did you know? and it completely ruined my day. the only positive is that i bought myself a dora the explorer rain jacket at Claires (its meant to fit a little kid so its three quarter length) its mad stylish. everyone at schools gonna be jealous when it rains and im sporting my dora... im done. i bet no one actually reads this cause its too long. THIS SUCKS. TY girls, im eeming it up tonight. love you all. 4 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

to the power of the hoochie [19 Jul 2004|06:47pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | hot action cop ] to call...or not to call... I NEED TO CALL. or else he wont be able to stalk my camp so i can see him. I cant call him. Hes probably not home. But if i dont call him now then...ill never...ahh. also my cell phones gone crazy and thats the only way i have his number. and its not turning on. AM I THAT UNNATRACTIVE THAT I CANT TURN ON MY CELL PHONE? 8 <--♥-->| well, i had a great time tonight..

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